Hey
Seb come over here a minute – I’ve got a shock
‘That
Pain’ that had gone after the op., is back in my tummy again.
Mum’ll
only be a minute so listen and be quiet –
I’ve
got lots to go through with you
Once Mum sees
my big pain filled eyes her face will crumple and I’ll forget what I want you to know
Remember everything
I’ve told you and how it’s all done
I know I’ve
been strict but look what you’ve become
I’m
proud of you Seb even though I’ve never said it
you’re
loved and you’re needed ............... now more than ever
We’ve
had 2 great weeks – it’s been such fun to be pain free and playing
and running with Mum.
I can tell that it’s back and Mum needs
to help me, for once I can’t do it myself.
Sit with me now and go through all that I’ve taught you then when she comes make yourself
scarce
She’ll
help me I know - although she’ll be hurting and sobbing she’ll bring me back here,
Painfree
and peaceful in my beautiful garden..... Seb listen up and repeat everything
I’ve taught you – ah that’s a good boy sounds like you’ve got it – it’s taken 2 years
but you’re there!
I’ve
been places and seen plenty that’s made Mum so proud,
I’ve
heard comments that are lovely coming from the crowd, Earls Court, NEC, demonstrations and antics, the friends, the children,
the fun..........................oh! what fun ......
You
cradled my head Mum and Dad tickled my tail - I wagged it for as long as I could...................
As the
pain faded I heard you talking ‘go Mr Blue go special boy, play catch with your tatty old football and THANK YOU
so much for being with me, for being my darling Blue’
You
can’t know this of course Mum but you did the best thing, the thing I knew you would do – you helped me go gently
and in yours and Dads arms to a place where I’ll wait for you.
The huge hole that I’ve left will heal very slowly and the thing that we had will live
on.....
I’ll
be watching you always and checking on Seb
if he makes
a false move I’ll correct him as always in my own usual style,
I just know
that he’ll look after you.
My family
are all to me now and forever and thank you for taking me in – I’ve got so many stories to tell all the others - while I wait for you at Rainbow Bridge.
